Posted by Callum Freedman on 17th February 2016
My name is Callum Freed-man. This is an assumed name that I am adopting for the purpose of entries I'll make on this blog. At present, some of my family members find the thought of me going 'public' with my history of same sex attraction extremely difficult to handle and so to avoid them anxiety and also to give me the freedom to write unhindered on a topic such as this one, I will write anonymously for the time being. I want to be able to write in such a way as to help as many people in the most effective way I can and I feel that writing under these conditions will best faciltate that.
Well, firstly I suppose I should explain why I want to 'blog' about a topic such as this one; one that I have been intimately aqainted with for the best part of twenty years. My reasons are two fold. Firstly, and preeminently I want to reach out a hand to help people who have experienced these kind of feelings and for whatever reason do not want to live a homosexual lifestyle. This is an enormous subject and I feel I could write for days on it - such is the impact that it has had on us as individuals and collectively as a society. But, I will do my best to keep my blog entries succinct so as to post them at a length most people have the time to read in one sitting. My second reason, as I have already alluded to, is the subject of the impact it has had on society. It is controversial not only because it polarises us into opposing groups of opinion but also because many people simply struggle to understand it, and in my strongly held view, 'mis-understand' it. I want to raise a flag to church leaders, youth leaders, politicians, teachers, journalists and Western society as a whole to bring some awareness about what same sex attraction is, and what it is not and to shed some light on what it is like for someone who has known this experience on a personal level and who has also been able to come to a place of living contentedly without it as a controlling part of their life. At the beginning of each blog I will identify my 'audience'. If the blog is addressed directly to someone who has experienced feelings of same sex attraction I will identify the audience as 'Those with same sex attractions'. If it is for the purpose of addressing those who are interested in the subject but who are onlookers to the experience of it I will identify the audience as 'Those with interests in the subject of same sex attraction'. At present life is very busy but I will initially attempt to post a blog on a weekly basis. If I find this needs adjustment I will mention the change in the most recent post. I also plan to alternate the intended audience on a weekly basis so that a blog entry will be posted to each audience on a bi-weekly basis.
Although I hope the blog will provide beneficial information both to those who want to go in a different direction in their lives and also to those who are interested, it will not be written from a technical prospective. I want to write from the heart to the heart of the reader. If you're coming from a place of wanting to leave homosexuality, I will address you as if 'in person'. If you're not, but need to understand more about what same sex attraction is so you can decide how to respond to it, I will still address you directly. This is the purpose for which I'm writing this blog, to speak to the heart as well as the head of the individual who happens to be my reader.
I will sign this off as my intro and will continue to post on related subheadings around this important issue.
The thoughts and opinions I share on this blog are personal ones and aren't necessarily held by Core Issues Trust.